Part 2

🧠 I'm tired of u I'm just so tired of u
🫀ik I'm tired of my self too he is tired of me too....I guess he deserve someone who matches his energy and vibe wiz him some one who doesn't nag him everyday asking for a treatment that I don't deserve

🧠 now u r discriminating ur self...don't u think u deserve the best?..if u don't believe this how can u make someone believe u deserve the best? how?
🫀 I do deserve the best ....right?

🧠 yes ofcourse u deserve the best everyone deserve the best...don't u ever lower ur standards for anyone even if its ur mom don't let her make u feel useless Cuz u r not we all are here precious creatures that God pays alot for us to live why would u ever wanna change that?..didn't u let go ur dream for him? Didn't u change ur self for good for him? Didn't u cutoff people for him Cuz  they doesn't appreciate him? Didn't u cry silently at night praying that u both have a healthy relationship ? Didn't u pay all the prices that cost even if its ur peace and pride to be ok with him didn't u? U doesn't say it out loud doesn't mean u haven't done anything Cuz haven't u done this n more for him?
🫀yes I did but...

🧠 there is no but here Ik he might be doing the same or he might not u didn't rly know n u r not sure & the only thing u r sure about is that he loves u right?
🫀yes he do

🧠 what if his love fades away through time didn't u see happy couples who fall in love and get married but end up breaking up within few months didn't u see that wiz ur closest person?
🫀I do...

🧠 then what is ur guarantee what's it that keeps u from telling him all of this that keeps u from telling him that u r losing ur self day by day that u r trying to compensate everything just for him that u need only the bare minimum which is giving constant care and love that u gave him or that u r afraid to give him because u think he will brag and u will feel like u r begging for love..why don't u tell him that u r slowly not seeing ur future and its getting hard for u...why don't u tell him?
🫀but i love him i don wanna disappoint him or break his heart or make his day bad Cuz of me i really love him ...

🧠 yes that's y I'm asking u to tell him Cuz if u don't u will soon be numb and u can't even love anyone properly how come he knows ur inside if u don't tell him? He is not a witch right? So he cannot know what u r passing through ik u have tones of problems that u don't tell anyone ik u love people with out any conditions to the fullest and that's also hurting u ik everything that u r passing through but u r the only one who can stand for ur self if u can't then who will? So do what's right laugh to the fullest work to the end and be happy Cuz u rly deserve that!
🫀yes I will u r right!

🧠 ik I'm uk I'm always right 😉
🫀stapp don't brag anyways thanks for the advice n uk I already have done what u told me last time about building my self and all ....yes I'm doing that I'm praying, studying , taking care of my self , hanging up wiz my friends,  entertaining my self , having a self time too and also I'm going to church more often and uk I'm a grown ass women right now!

🧠 yep u r n u got this too ik u gonna solve this too I'm so proud of u I'm proud of not only this but all the path u  passed to be here...I'm really proud of you!
🫀thankyou!☺️♥️

🧠 that's my duty dummy...
🫀bluh bluh heartless😌

.......to be continued

The only person u can change is your self!

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Why does life should be this way?

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Start the healing process early...

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Very different...

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It's not like "እንቁልልጭ" it's like " if someone ordinary person like me can do this then u can do much better".

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I'm an Ambivert
I'm both extrovert and introvert.
I like people, but I need to be alone.
I'll go out , vibe and meet new people but it has expiration because I have to recharge. If I don't find the valuable alone time that I need I cannot be my highest self

U feel me?

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I don't know if it's only me but the rain brings so much precious memory that we wanna live again if we get the chance🌧🥹❤️

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Soooooo I had the most worst day of my life and let me መነጫነጭ about it today I didn't have class Cuz tomorrow I have final exam so i was suppose to be studying the whole day which i didn't starting from the very beginning when I get up from my bed my eye(the right one) was so red and I got inflammation which made me went to the pharmacy and bought eye drops then all was good but as i said i didn't study the whole day & i wasn't in the mood plus there was this thing about my friend that was bothering me n i thought when I tell her it would be good but it turn out worse she was mad at me or the situation idk clearly but it was more than I even imagined and that got me so mad Cuz I thought she would understand me n she would care a little as I was thinking the whole day for her ብቻ that passed and I went to church which is the good part but after we came back from church with other friend of mine we invited other friend of ours to dinner and asked him if he could come ቶሎ then he said " I will be there just order and wait for me " then we waited like hour and half and as I said i didn't study the whole day and he wasn't in a situation to come on time ብቻ one way or another we waited like that wondering he will come soon then he came we ate ምናምን we drink sprice then the የምግብ ቤቱ ባለቤቶች are like fam for us so they መሸኘት us Cuz it was late mind u it was like 4 o'clock or something then as we were going our way to ግቢ one of the owners hit her head wiz a brunch of tree and while she was tripping she hit my hand and my phone slided on the asphalt mind u again my phone dosen't have glass sticker then it fell down and the screen broke into million pieces it still works but I couldn't see half of the words lol then I was so shocked not because my phone was broken  but because the tree brunch hit her hard n she was worried about my phone alot ብቻ እንደዛ እንደዛ ሆኖ ምንም ማለት አይደለም ብዬ I tried to calm her down and we get into the library and I couldn't free my mind like what was this day about I mean hehe i am not studying አሁን እራሱ instead I'm confensing here and the reason for that is I used to tell this kinda non sense to my man and his phone was broken 2 weeks ago or sth n he got borrowed phone from a friend but he gave back that phone yesterday so I clearly can't talk to him whenever I want he calls me when he find someone that lend him a phone soooo I'm sitting in the garden with my PC opened infront of  my face so I should be studying right now and y'all should pray for me to pass my exam not only pass but wiz good grades Cuz I should make y'all proud lol ብቻ መልካም አዳር may u never experience a long and አስቀያሚ day like this but እግዚአብሔር ይመስገን! atleast i have a chance to make it right!....
Soooo anyways ደና እደሩልኝ thankyou for hearing me out and  I'm deadly serious about the praying part don't forget me hehe byeeee😚😚😚❤️❤️❤️

19.10.15

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Does my heart die??
Why am I not feeling anything??
Is it normal to not feel slightest feeling too?

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Have u ever been sick physically but u didn't notice Cuz ur Inside was hurt?

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And then when u ignore the inside pain u will start feeling the physical pain alot ....

I felt empty again

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God be with me I ain't got no one😔

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Shout out to the people who still wake up and choose not to quit everyday.

You got this.

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I'm just so tired of people like every single person

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Sometimes it's better to be alone no body can hurt u

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This was my motto n I guess it should be like this always

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Happiness is overrated. Content is more realistic to strive for.


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