You’ve become so damaged that when someone wants to give you what you deserve, you have no idea how to respond

“But grief compels me, maybe even more than sleep. I am waiting for something to last. I know nothing will.”

 “We rip out so much of ourselves to be cured of things faster than we should that we go bankrupt by the age of thirty and have less to offer each time we start with someone new. But to make yourself feel nothing so as not to feel anything – what a waste!”

It’s funny going through this channel after years, i didn’t know what most of those quotes even meant i just posted them for fun. But now i do, and the worst part i can say that the fine link between them is the lost puzzle piece. What is all the feeling lost and shallow for?

And everything I dreamed of when i was 17 didn’t come true, and that’s so sad to say that there’s so much things i missed in my teenage years, yes you can get what you want at any age, but you will never be young again, things will be so different. And this made me lose hope and passion for a lot of things in life. Is it depression or new phase idk but it’s taking forever