Hi loves! I miss you guys so much. Tell me, how was your day 🤩

We'll talk really soon, I promise you! Therefore you need to hang on <3

Also, just want to add a short note. I think you deserve to rest today. You had a long day, lay down and close your eyes. Inhale and exhale while listening to ASMR.

*pats your back*
I'm proud of you, besties!

What matters is your heart. You have a heart of gold. Now stop worrying, you're not alone.

truth

perhaps it wasn’t the yelling,
wasn’t how you downgraded my emotions,
wasn’t the way you talk shit about me;
in my face or behind my back,
it wasn’t how loud your voice was,

which causes the red lines under my sleeves,
left an echo in my brain for weeks,
makes me paralyzed from getting simple task done;
be it getting up from bed,
be it brushing my teeth or taking a shower,

as if you have the button to replay those trauma,
the trauma i’ve been trying hard to bury for past years,
you’re capable of undoing all that in a split second,
expert in making the progress i’ve made past weeks going down the drain,

maybe i hated you for that,
but i hate myself more for hating you,
forgetting the little things you’ve given me growing up,
although those little ounce of care,
little ounce of affection you’re suppressing from giving me,

funny how little you understands me,
how i understood your trauma and validated your bad behaviors,
considering the age gap between us,
you’re supposed to be my parent who’ll be there for me,
yet here i am gaslighting myself into thinking what you’re doing is right,
how i deserve the hatred and abuse in order for me to grow,

when deep down i know i deserve more,
i deserve more than what you’re giving me,
you taught me how to not raise a child,
taught me in order to get what i want through manipulation,

“i’ve done this for you, how could you not do this for me? after all what i’ve provided for you?”
“this is how you’re treating us after we gave you this?”

i have to taught myself how to be a better person,
i had to re-parent myself giving the validation i needed growing up,
i used to look up to you,
thinking how you’re perfect in my eyes,

but the more i grow,
the more i understood your toxic traits;
manipulation, gaslighting, victim blame,
the more i’m becoming you,
the hatred towards myself grew,
the more i’m scared to be you when i grow up.

Hi guys, i tried this and its very therapeutic. My eyes started sweating so much

THIS IS A JOKE OK

you guys should totally get this if it's still available 🤠 or maybe get next year's edition cause this is beautiful!!

Idk man, I messed up my love life just like that :/

I love him but all these past memories makes me numb, makes me emotionless, unresponsive to all his love reassurance. I feel bad.

it doesn’t get better but you’re getting better 🤍 keep going loves, you got this.

Hey guys. Omg i miss talking to you. How has your week been? Mine is kinda hectic. Im having my finals and its been super tiring for me. I hope you're having a good one, dont skip meals! I hope you know that every day, you have a chance to feel better than the day before. Today is a new day, so lets be super productive. Tell me, what are you going to be doing today?

I hate this so much. I just don't enjoy the things I used to anymore. There's no fun in it, and im no longer interested.

Omfg why do you have to mad at me everyday? Wtf did i do wrong ? Answer me when I ask you, don’t just keep quiet as if i can read your mind

Hello Mr. Blades, my old friend :) Nice to see you again.