foulio, here i am. im someone from the past, striving to grow into a better version of myself, yet i still find myself missing all of you.

AE: do you remember when i said you’re like the ocean or the shore? because you always calmed me whenever i needed you. i never missed a day yapping to you, right?
now… i've learned to calm myself, but thank you so much for always understanding me back then.
i'm grateful i met you that April. i met someone who reminded me of you and honestly, it made me sad. it felt like i was betraying our friendship, and maybe the universe noticed… because it sent me someone who looked like you. i miss us playing and laughing like we used to. i miss our late-night deep talks. and deep down, i still wish i could turn back time… back to the moment when we first met.

FE: i'm still so happy that we keep in touch, i never expected we’d grow this close. tbh, weren’t we the most awkward pair when we first met? WKWKWK. but i'm really glad you’re here, still beside me, never once changing how you treat me. you always make me feel seen and respected. i know you’re not much of a responder, but you’re such a good listener. you understand me in ways not everyone can and that means the world to me. i'm beyond happy that you’ve been my friend since that April. i really hope you never get tired of me, and that you won’t give up on our friendship. i hope we’ll always stay close, no matter what. i guess i'm putting a lot of hope into this friendship… into you.

AK: hey, i haven’t heard from you in a while, so… how are you, akayi? :) i hope you’re doing okay. i'm still hoping to hear something from you, even though there haven’t been any signs. but i really hope you see this message. this is me pouring out all the longing i've been holding in… for you and for foulio.i wish you’d come main bareng with us again, hehe. you were always the best among us! i'm still waiting for good news from you, please don’t disappoint the hopes i've been keeping, okay? i miss you so much, seriously. the others miss you too. don't you miss us? i truly hope you’re doing well wherever you are… that you’re taking care of yourself, and succeeding in whatever you’re planning or working on. i just want things to go back to how they were when we first met. do you think that’s still possible? :[[

#Memoire my precious best friend @assasshin

tapi walaupun cuma baru setahunan, aku enjoy bangett bisa stay sama bububb!! ini harusnya jadi tahun kedua kita sahabatan ngga sihh? makasih yaa selama ini udah nemenin aku waktu lagi seneng, susah, sedih ataupun bahagia. bubub adalah hal terbaik yang Tuhan kasih buat aku!! i'm so lucky to have youu. makasih udah selalu nyadarin aku kalo lagi nggak bisa waras mikirin semua hal di dunia fana ini. walaupun kita udah jarang chattingan tapi percayalah kalo aku selalu ada kalo bubub butuh sesuatu. terimakasih udah lahir didunia ini dan jadi temenkuu!! stay close yaa sayang? aku harap kita bisa bareng bareng terus selama lamanyaa!! jangan ada marahan atau apapun itu yang bikin renggang!! aishiteru bubub ku sayangg 🤍🤍

with love, juliel hugo

I love you guys forever. Not in the fleeting way people toss around words, but in the bone-deep, soul-sure kind of way that sticks through years, storms, and silent nights. You've held my hand when it trembled, caught my tears before they fell too hard, and made space for all the chaos I sometimes bring.

I know I'm not easy. I carry shadows, I make mistakes, I stumble when I’m trying to run. I wear my flaws like a jacket two sizes too big—awkward and obvious. But not once have you let me feel small because of them. You never asked me to be perfect. You just asked me to be present. And that—your kindness, your patience—it’s the kind of magic that keeps the stars burning. So thank you. For every time you stayed when it would've been easier to walk away. For the laughter that stitched me back together and the silence that felt like comfort, not distance. For being there in the in-between moments when I wasn't quite myself, and loving me still.

Please, don’t drift. Don’t fade into a memory I’ll ache to recall. Stay close—even if the skies darken, even if we change. Because this bond? It’s the kind of thing that defies time, that dances through seasons, that reminds me I'm not alone. I love you—not in theory, but in action. In every messy, beautiful, honest moment we’ve shared and will share again.

Forever is big. But with you, it feels just right. Sincerely, the greatest boy in the cc 🔥

Aku tidak berani mengatakan langsung padamu karena aku takut mengganggumu jadi akhirnya aku mengatakan disini. Aku merindukanmu. Aku sangat senang bertemu denganmu, dari awal sampai sekarang aku masih merasa begitu. Walaupun sekarang aku tidak bisa menjadi temenmu lagi, aku tetap mengingatmu sebagai temanku. Kamu tau? Walaupun tindakanmu cukup membuatku sakit hati karena aku rasa itu hanya masalah sepele yang ga guna— tapi ya, mungkin itu masalah besar bagimu—aku tetap merasa dejavu dengan orang-orang baru yang ku kenal. Beberapa dari mereka mengingatkanku padamu dan hal itu membuatku semakin merindukanmu. Aku mencoba melupakanmu (padahal kita temenan baru 2 bulan) tapi aku benar-benar senang dan ingin terus menjadi temanmu. Kita cukup banyak kesamaan, itu yang bikin aku senang. Tapi sekarang semuanya sudah tidak mungkin lagi.... Maafkan aku. Aku rinduu, walaupun aku tau kamu bahkan tidak pernah mengingatku sama sekali sejak hari itu tapi tetap saja aku rinduu. Bahkan terkadang aku masih ingat candaan dan kata-kata kita saat masih temenan.
Berarti list film kita tidak akan terwujud, ya. Dan kita juga tidak akan nobar lagi, apalagi aku sangat senang nobar sama kamuu. Aku juga belum mendengar cara kamu memanggil gugukmu, ahaha. Lalu, kita punya satu rencana date, ga sih? Itu pun belum terwujud, ahaha. Sungguh miris. Seminggu kebelakang, aku masih berharap kita bisa berteman lagi dan melupakan hal-hal lalu tapi sekarang aku sudah sadar, tidak mungkin aku memaksa kamu untuk tetap berteman disaat kamu sudah tidak mau dan tidak nyaman lagi temenan samaku, 'kan? Jadi, aku akan menerima keputusanmu dan menghilangkan semua harapanku. Semoga aku bisa melupakanmu.

Semoga hidupmu berjalan dengan baik. Doa terbaikku akan kuberikan padamu.
I love you, my friend.

#memoire hello, baobéi? maybe this time I'll say many thank you for was coming in my life 4 month ago to full fill my life, you're literally my summer in december, my moon to my brighter star side, thank you for always listening to all my yapping ya sayang? hahaha kadang mikir takut kamu capek harus ngadepin tingkah random saya setiap hari, i'm fiercely proud for always to be YOURS your one and only. thank you for was here, was born, was stay with me, was cherishing me, was treating me well, I'm proud to be your soulmate baobéi, hope our red strings still like now ya? saya sayang banget sama kamu lilie, iloveyou always thank you for all everything sayang, i'm so lucky to be YOURS. @NoxNocturne

#Memoire To my beloved daughter @bleyski @dgummy.

your love makes me feel safe, accepted, and genuinely happy in a way I didn’t know was possible.

I love you from the moon and back, and then all the way again, ten thousand times over. That kind of love is cosmic—boundless, borderless, timeless. It’s carved into constellations only we can read, glowing across every late-night call, every inside joke, every held hand when the world got too heavy. And I love you with all your flaws—not in spite of them, but because of them. Because your imperfections are pieces of your story, and I want to read every chapter, not just the polished lines. You don’t always see how beautiful that vulnerability is, how brave it is to be real. But I do. And I fall for you deeper every time.

Even more so, I love you when you love all of my flaws. When you call my overthinking “charming” instead of annoying. When you stay near even when I try to push away. When you look at me not like I’m broken, but like I’m art—messy, raw, unfinished… and still worth everything. The way you love me makes me softer. Stronger. Truer. Times like this—these moments wrapped in ordinary magic—are everything. The way your laughter echoes into my silence. The way our arms seem to remember one another even after a long day. These are the pauses in life I live for. Not the big events, not the highlight reels… but this. This everyday love that feels like home.

I love you the most. That kind of “most” that doesn’t have edges or limits. A most that stretches through bad days and brighter ones. A most that’s still here after every lesson, after every “I’m sorry,” after every quiet moment when we just breathe together. You are not just my person—you’re my peace, my poetry, my favorite truth.

Do read this. Wording exclusive dari gua.

I honestly miss u sm. You were that kind of friend, y’know? The real kind. The type who stuck around through all th’ chaos when we played together. I still remember the very first time u sent me that premium gift I was honestly so shocked, I didn’t even know how to properly say ty, let alone give something back. N when u needed help? God, I was so lost... I wanted to help but had no clue how🤷🏻😿

Now, funny enough, I feel like I finally could do more. I could be that person for you, maybe. But you're alr gone. Just like that. One day you were there, n the next poof. No goodbye. No warning. You just vanished.

I remember all the things u used to share. Your stories, your jokes, even the way u spoke honestly, your words could be so damn sharp sometimes, but you were always there. No matter what. Always helping. Always showing up

The last thing u ever said to me was something about sorting out all the channels linked to manfess. Random, yea, but it stuck w/ me. Like an echo

I dunno if u still remember me or about me. But I remember you n still remember all of you. N I still carry that version of u in my head the loud, kind, chaotic mess of a friend who gave more than they ever asked for

Wherever u are now, I hope you're alright. I hope life's being kind to you. N just... yeahh, I still remember. I always will. ♥️

– From me, the one who still wishes she could say “thank you” properly.

#Memoire—To my dearest, @ruanelv

I hope you know that I’ll always be here for you too. No matter where life takes us, you’ll always have me in your corner.

Here’s to more memories, more laughter, and more unforgettable moments together.

#Memoire Hi, @disenyap @anzthe @Piroruette @aaryon.