Hurting myself in the process of loving you
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I am hurting myself in the process of loving you
I am in a battle with my own feelings
I am fighting my own heart
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I love you but I don't know if you feel the same
You speak of love only in bed
Except that time,you participate in digging my six feet bed
After your harsh words I still call you my love
After you beat me I still answer your call
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Then what is love
I am hurting myself in the process of loving you
If I quit will l be better to stand against my heart
I feel for you but with you I feel pain
I am tied to my feelings
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I miss you when you are far away
With you I am scared
I tell my heart severely that am nervous around that beast of you
But it kept on telling me to hold on
As I hold I am pinned
Pinned by my love for you
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I am hurting myself in the process of loving
Yes,l love you but sometimes I am afraid my love will push me to a room without a window
I am trying so hard to fight my feelings
I am in a Dilemma.
ยฉPhotizo
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I am hurting myself in the process of loving you
I am in a battle with my own feelings
I am fighting my own heart
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I love you but I don't know if you feel the same
You speak of love only in bed
Except that time,you participate in digging my six feet bed
After your harsh words I still call you my love
After you beat me I still answer your call
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Then what is love
I am hurting myself in the process of loving you
If I quit will l be better to stand against my heart
I feel for you but with you I feel pain
I am tied to my feelings
๐
I miss you when you are far away
With you I am scared
I tell my heart severely that am nervous around that beast of you
But it kept on telling me to hold on
As I hold I am pinned
Pinned by my love for you
๐
I am hurting myself in the process of loving
Yes,l love you but sometimes I am afraid my love will push me to a room without a window
I am trying so hard to fight my feelings
I am in a Dilemma.
ยฉPhotizo
*"Beloved"*
You might be far,
Just like the moon and stars,
But no matter how far you are,
I would reach you wherever you are.
I would cross a thousands of oceans,
Climb the Mount Everest with caution,
Just to behold your radiant face,
Glowing gently like a garden rose.
I have been stabbed within,
With toxic feelings of loneliness,
Piercing my heart in between,
As sword thrusting through the flesh.
Being by your side makes me whole,
As your presence grants me a meaningful role,
Beyond the confines of the earth,
I would reach you to hold you tight.
Olayiwola Muhammed
Philanthropic pen.
You might be far,
Just like the moon and stars,
But no matter how far you are,
I would reach you wherever you are.
I would cross a thousands of oceans,
Climb the Mount Everest with caution,
Just to behold your radiant face,
Glowing gently like a garden rose.
I have been stabbed within,
With toxic feelings of loneliness,
Piercing my heart in between,
As sword thrusting through the flesh.
Being by your side makes me whole,
As your presence grants me a meaningful role,
Beyond the confines of the earth,
I would reach you to hold you tight.
Olayiwola Muhammed
Philanthropic pen.
*MY PEN.*
My pen is blessed
For it's ink is flow less
En not forgetting it's endless
For it's tubed in me
While each heartbeat pumps ink to it!
My pen is magical
Yet a fairy god mother holds it not
Neither does the gini
Nor any sorcerer
Rather I hold it with the power of love!
Whenever my fingers itches
I get to scratch them not
For my pen is calling out
Since I'm getting a stampede words
Words that need to be crafted!
I may be river
With my pen on my hand
Being held by my fingers
I become an ocean
As my words wave through your thoughts en gives inspiration!
I'm my pen
Oh, my pen is me!
We're one of a pair
One of a kind
Our bond is unbreakable!
*ยฉยฎ Mylistic Master Pen ๐๐ฐ๐ช*
My pen is blessed
For it's ink is flow less
En not forgetting it's endless
For it's tubed in me
While each heartbeat pumps ink to it!
My pen is magical
Yet a fairy god mother holds it not
Neither does the gini
Nor any sorcerer
Rather I hold it with the power of love!
Whenever my fingers itches
I get to scratch them not
For my pen is calling out
Since I'm getting a stampede words
Words that need to be crafted!
I may be river
With my pen on my hand
Being held by my fingers
I become an ocean
As my words wave through your thoughts en gives inspiration!
I'm my pen
Oh, my pen is me!
We're one of a pair
One of a kind
Our bond is unbreakable!
*ยฉยฎ Mylistic Master Pen ๐๐ฐ๐ช*
Mother Mary
Mother Mary, Queen of Heaven,
The Mother of our Savior.
The Word Incarnate was given
For us as special favor.
Blessed Mother of Jesus Christ
Whose love shines throughout the land,
Itโs true, your Son, He sacrificed
But some men misunderstand.
Holy Virgin and Mother too,
Iโll speak your wisdom and fame;
When impious men blaspheme you,
Iโll love more your holy name.
Mother Mary of the Gospel,
Who always relieved the pain.
When our faith is torn and hostile
Guide us back to love again.
San Diego 8 December 2022
Mother Mary, Queen of Heaven,
The Mother of our Savior.
The Word Incarnate was given
For us as special favor.
Blessed Mother of Jesus Christ
Whose love shines throughout the land,
Itโs true, your Son, He sacrificed
But some men misunderstand.
Holy Virgin and Mother too,
Iโll speak your wisdom and fame;
When impious men blaspheme you,
Iโll love more your holy name.
Mother Mary of the Gospel,
Who always relieved the pain.
When our faith is torn and hostile
Guide us back to love again.
San Diego 8 December 2022
The Last Leg
Complete the race upon me Lord
By giving a sound judgement,
From you Iโll get my just reward
Once ending my assignment.
This day, all rivals they paused for
Behind all those temptations:
From tears and joys, peace, and war
Comforts and tribulations.
Give me your grace and your mercy
As this race arrived its toll,
And though I know I am dirty
Youโll wash clean my sinful soul.
Oh! How I love you will judge me
From birth to death, and all fate.
Though I cheated and travelled freeโฆ
Still, I reached this golden gate.
All Saintโs Day 2022
Complete the race upon me Lord
By giving a sound judgement,
From you Iโll get my just reward
Once ending my assignment.
This day, all rivals they paused for
Behind all those temptations:
From tears and joys, peace, and war
Comforts and tribulations.
Give me your grace and your mercy
As this race arrived its toll,
And though I know I am dirty
Youโll wash clean my sinful soul.
Oh! How I love you will judge me
From birth to death, and all fate.
Though I cheated and travelled freeโฆ
Still, I reached this golden gate.
All Saintโs Day 2022
Forwarded from Jude Bellingham
๐๐ผ๐ ๐ผ๐น๐ฑ ๐ฎ๐ฟ๐ฒ ๐๐ผ๐?
WHO DO YOU THINK YOU ARE
I don't know who you are
but I know you mess things up really bad
you don't even think of me before you take actions
You hurt me but you didn't even care
I know I love you
but you have hurt me beyond imagination,
who do you think you are to hurt me this way
I don't know who you are
but I know you mess things up really bad
you don't even think of me before you take actions
You hurt me but you didn't even care
I know I love you
but you have hurt me beyond imagination,
who do you think you are to hurt me this way
THE LIE YOU TOLD ME
Don't tell me am confused
Don't tell me I should try to understand
I fall love with you because of things you told me
You told me you love me
you said am the only one in your heart
you promise to love me forever
you said so many sweet things to me
and I believe you for all of them
now you are acting like you don't care
you call me everyday, your love texts is always my morning song
but now you don't text again,
when I call you, all I hear is story upon story
you have stop calling regularly and when you called,
you are always in a hurry to hang up
So I ask myself why have you change so much,
what about all you told me,that you love me
what happen to all the sweet promise
you made to me
I just realize that you lied to me and I fall in love for the lie you told me
Don't tell me am confused
Don't tell me I should try to understand
I fall love with you because of things you told me
You told me you love me
you said am the only one in your heart
you promise to love me forever
you said so many sweet things to me
and I believe you for all of them
now you are acting like you don't care
you call me everyday, your love texts is always my morning song
but now you don't text again,
when I call you, all I hear is story upon story
you have stop calling regularly and when you called,
you are always in a hurry to hang up
So I ask myself why have you change so much,
what about all you told me,that you love me
what happen to all the sweet promise
you made to me
I just realize that you lied to me and I fall in love for the lie you told me
Forwarded from Jude Bellingham
๐ฌ Who are you?
I struggle to sleep ,
I struggle to breath
My brain loses focus ,
My heart yearns for your touch
Genuine touch ,
A touch which doesn't let go.
A touch that stays
A touch which is not a one night stand.
Yes, they say love is unpredictable.
But, at this point I don't know what to think.
Paranoia grips me ,
Anxiety wrestles me,
Still I refused to give up.
"Love doesn't give up easily", my bible tells me.
I held that word to my heart.
All I wanted was a touch.
A touch you were too busy to provide.
I learnt to live without you.
I learnt to love my self more,
I learnt to touch my self
For in that touch,
I could never bring harm to myself .....
I struggle to breath
My brain loses focus ,
My heart yearns for your touch
Genuine touch ,
A touch which doesn't let go.
A touch that stays
A touch which is not a one night stand.
Yes, they say love is unpredictable.
But, at this point I don't know what to think.
Paranoia grips me ,
Anxiety wrestles me,
Still I refused to give up.
"Love doesn't give up easily", my bible tells me.
I held that word to my heart.
All I wanted was a touch.
A touch you were too busy to provide.
I learnt to live without you.
I learnt to love my self more,
I learnt to touch my self
For in that touch,
I could never bring harm to myself .....