"What are you afraid of?"

"Eyes, I'm afraid of eyes tearing my clothes apart and seeing what I have been trying to hide. I'm afraid of them getting inside and making me feel their hands on my skin. I'm afraid of them searching me from tip to toe. I'm afraid of contacting them at that moment, which they will consider a signal. I'm afraid of avoiding them at all because that will give them courage to follow me until I disappear. I'm afraid those eyes will try to find me the next day in the same place they saw me the day before. I'm afraid that they won't leave me alone from now on. I'm afraid of them creating a scene in their heads. I'm afraid of those eyes looking for something they want every time I come down. I'm afraid of eyes entering my gut and creating fear there. I'm afraid of that fear haunting me and making me question myself about why I was born like this."

"Ears, I'm afraid of ears hearing my sobs, which I haven't been able to hold up. I'm afraid of them hearing things I've never said or done to anyone. I'm afraid of them listening to what those eyes saw. I'm afraid of them hearing that they own me now because I looked at them once. I'm afraid of them catching the bad vibration and cursing me for days; why I had gone there. I'm afraid of them becoming judgemental even without knowing my side of the story. I'm afraid of them believing what they said about me. I'm afraid of them chaining me from going anywhere. I'm afraid they'll force me to leave everything, because some eyes couldn't lay off from my body."

"Mouths, I'm afraid of mouths telling me I don't deserve anything. I'm afraid of them spreading lies about me. I'm afraid of them speaking whatever comes in their tiny mind. I'm afraid of them saying things that could pierce the skin those eyes couldn't. I'm afraid of them blabbering about how I was born like that and that it was my mistake to be born with some extra or different parts. I'm afraid of them not admitting they're wrong; instead, they would like to hang me for a mistake I didn't make. Those were just some eyes that saw, some ears that heard, and some mouths that uttered, and still I'm the one with a ruined life."

I'm afraid of you if you fall under any of these circumstances.

Living is easy with your eyes closed, misunderstanding all you see...

እየከፋ ሲሄድ ጊዜው መሸሸጊያ እየሱስ ነው

On my earlier years, I was deceived by the notion that not letting people know about your weakness and not giving them a chance to have even a glance of your tears meant bravery; that being a person others can always lean on meant being strong. I molded myself as someone people can always rely on to; I've listened to their stories of grievances and downfall, while they were clueless about my own struggles.

I've just realized lately that the real bravery is when people also know that you have your own vulnerabilities; that it's not everyday you can be the bigger person in every instances and situation. That I cannot constantly offer them my presence, for I can't be strong at all times—there are also happenstances that I am on my knees, begging this life to be a little kinder, for I am still having a hard time on one struggle it had thrown, yet it will give me more to be faced. That I have the right to say no when I can't attend to other's difficulties, for I still have to fix my own mess and calm my own chaos.

When I can be of help, I will surely be. But there are also times that these hands of mine can only be of rescue to my own being.



@quotesmemes

1ኛ ጴጥሮስ :5
#የማለዳእንጀራ

my mind is so loud the marching band of thoughts, the battle of past and present, the raging noise of regrets and mistakes. This is why I am always tired—there's a lot going on inside my head. Whatever people think about my quiet, it's up to them. I've got a lot to think about to even give my care on it.

I've realized that one of the reasons why it's easier to love others than to love one's self is because we are unaware of their flaws, and we know ours—that we keep on highlighting it on our beings, to the max that it's so hard to see our good sides.

But notice this: once we built that strong foundation of loving others purely, we are starting to embrace their imperfections, and eventually their entirety—the blemishes can now equate the beauty, nothing will change despite the mar and scars. The love will remain the same.

May we begin to do it to ourselves now—hug our souls more, despite of the flaws we are having; and also see the grace we are carrying.

@quotesmemes

Water does not resist. Water flows. When you plunge your hand into it, all you feel is a caress. Water is not a solid wall, it will not stop you. But water always goes where it wants to go, and nothing in the end can stand against it. Water is patient. Dripping water wears away a stone. Remember that, Remember you are half water. If you can’t go through an obstacle, go around it. Water does.

If you can't be a pencil to write someone's happiness, then be a nice eraser to erase their sadness ..

That's the one thing
you have to understand.
If it was really meant to be.
Then it would have been.
Nothing more. Nothing less.
And nothing in-between.

I just hope it doesn't take you
a lifetime to understand this.

Grief, I’ve learned, is really love. It’s all the love you want to give but cannot give. The more you loved someone, the more you grieve. All of that unspent love gathers up in the corners of your eyes and in that part of your chest that gets that empty and hollow feeling. The happiness of love turns to sadness when unspent. Grief is just love with no place to go.

People may love you when you hate their enemies and reject what they reject, so the act of hatred becomes a reason for love, but according to their standards! Indeed, how strange people are! They love you because you hate, and they hate you because you love.

➖ THE VOID SERIES 7 ➖

ወለምታ ባያጣም ፥ ፍቅር እና እግር
አንዳንዴ ይሰብራል ፥ የወዳጅ ንግግር
እሬት አጎረሱኝ ፥ ካፍሽ ላይ አጥቅሰው
ስትይኝ ቢሰሙሽ "ወትሮም እንዲህ ነው ሰው"
በትር ያልበገረኝ ፥ በቃል ተሰበርኩኝ
በቃ እኔ ላንቺ ፥ ሰው ብቻ ነበርኩኝ?

ካለማስተዋል፥ ካለመታዘዝ፥ ከልዩ ልዩ አለማዊ ምኞት እና ቀንበር በእሱ ጸጋ ያመለጣችሁ፡ በጸጋው ድነትን አግንታችሁ ድነታችሁን ነዋሪ የሆናችሁ የአባቴ ምርጦች ጸጋና ሰላም ይብዛላችሁ፡፡
ወደ ቲቶ ምዕራፍ 3
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3፤ እኛ ደግሞ አስቀድመን የማናስተውል ነበርንና፤ የማንታዘዝ፥ የምንስት፥ ለምኞትና ለልዩ ልዩ ተድላ እንደ ባሪያዎች የምንገዛ፥ በክፋትና በምቀኝነት የምንኖር፥ የምንጣላ፥ እርስ በርሳችን የምንጠላላ ነበርን።

4፤ ነገር ግን የመድኃኒታችን የእግዚአብሔር ቸርነትና ሰውን መውደዱ በተገለጠ ጊዜ፥

5፤ እንደ ምሕረቱ መጠን ለአዲስ ልደት በሚሆነው መታጠብና በመንፈስ ቅዱስ በመታደስ አዳነን እንጂ፥ እኛ ስላደረግነው በጽድቅ ስለ ነበረው ሥራ አይደለም፤

6-7፤ ያን መንፈስም፥ በጸጋው ጸድቀን በዘላለም ሕይወት ተስፋ ወራሾች እንድንሆን፥ በመድኃኒታችን በኢየሱስ ክርስቶስ በእኛ ላይ አትርፎ አፈሰሰው።
ዛሬ ላሳስባችሁ የምፈልገው የቃሉ ርዕስ፥ "ደነታችሁን ኑሩ" የሚል ይሆናል

ዛሬ በብዙ ክርስቲያኖች ዘንድ ድነት የሚባል ነገር እየተረሳና እየቀለል ያለ ነገር ነው። ከሁሉም ነገር ማስቀደምና ትልቅ ዋጋ መስጠት ካለብን ለድነታችን ጉዳይ ነው። አንድ paracetamol ምናልባት 10 ብር ከሆነ ያ የሆነው ዋጋው ስለሆን ሳይሆን ከጀርባ sponsor ያደረጉ ብዙ ሰዎች ስላሉ ነው ምናልባት ያለምንም sponsor እኛ ጋ ቢደርስ ከአቅማችን በላይ ሆኖ መግዛት ያቅተን ይሆናል፥ ግን ያንን ጥቂት ነገር ስላዋጣን ለዛ ነገር ትልቅ ዋጋ እንሰጣለን፡፡
በነጻ የዳናችሁት መዳን እርካሽ ሆኖ ሳይሆን በፍጹም መክፈል ስለማትችሉ ነው።

ሆኖም የዳንነው ታላቅ ዋጋ ተከፍሎ እንደሆነ አንርሳ ጌታ ኢየሱስ እኛን ለማዳን በመስቀል ላይ ከአይምሮአችን በላይ የሆነ ዋጋ ከፍሎአል። መዳናችን አይቅለልብን ለራሳችን እንዲህ እንበል


"ህይወቴ ዋጋ ተከፍሎበታል! በነጻ ድኛለው ምክንያቱም መክፈል ወይም ማዋጣት ስለማልችል፥ ጌታን አከብራለው መዳኔንም አላቃልልም"።

@quotesmemes

እግዚአብሔር ሆይ፤ የሰው ሕይወት በራሱ እጅ እንዳልሆነች፣ አካሄዱንም በራሱ አቃንቶ ሊመራ እንደማይችል ዐውቃለሁ።

እግዚአብሔር ሆይ፤ ቅጣኝ፤ ብቻ በመጠኑ ይሁንልኝ፤ ፈጽሞ እንዳልጠፋ፣ በቍጣህ አትምጣብኝ።
ኤርሚያስ 10:23-24

Happy Sunday fam 🎉