It is getting so hard to hold on these day , watching news about death everyday , lookin at my grade gettin worst , the covid cases also gettin worst . It is sad , really sad . I have lose my hope , my will , my friend and my everything . One thing that left is my faith towards Allah , that kept me from falling deeper in my dark hole . I know and believe that Allah's plan are better . Hope I will hold on untill my last breath . In Shaa Allah .
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Diam dan pendam
Banyak yang ingin diluahkan, terlampau banyak . Tapi tak tahu nak mula dari mana . Sebak , sedih . Sampai satu tahap , nak hilangkan diri , bawa diri pergi ke tempat lain, jauh dari semua .
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Banyak yang ingin diluahkan, terlampau banyak . Tapi tak tahu nak mula dari mana . Sebak , sedih . Sampai satu tahap , nak hilangkan diri , bawa diri pergi ke tempat lain, jauh dari semua .
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Im sorry that you found me in my broken state , have trust issues , overthinking , psychotic , always sad , crying my eyes out everyday . Im sorry .
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If i lose my battle , you should know that you are the reason that I stayed a little longer . <3
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... If dia betul sayang kau, ...
serious dengan kau ,
walau busy mana pun dia ,
dia tetap akan bahagikan masa untuk kau .
If no then know your place sayang .
You don't beg for someone's love and time .
... If they want , they will . ...
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serious dengan kau ,
walau busy mana pun dia ,
dia tetap akan bahagikan masa untuk kau .
If no then know your place sayang .
You don't beg for someone's love and time .
... If they want , they will . ...
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She was love and that's all I need to know as her friend . Even I'm not with her anymore , I know she will be love by everyone . I'm relieved .
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I get tired easily these day. Talking, smiling , it really wears me out. I don't have that much energy left . Everything is tiring , even breathing .
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Am I worth for living ? can i bring benefits for people by living ? Am I that important to live ? Can I be useful to humanity ? Can I be that faithful servant ? Why I can't be like those brave people who speaks their mind out . While I'm hiding myself in the dark hoping to die for any illness , people outhere are fighting for their life . Shame on me . Shame on me ya Allah .
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There is night that I have tried to take my life , I thought those scar gonna fade away but it remains untill now . Everytime I look at those scars , it reminds me of that useless soul of mine . How useless I am even death don't want me . Shame on me again .
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