Me saying: I don’t have any standards.
Me at the same time:
I can explain certain things only in Russian, and the most important things only in English. Of course, there are some things I can express only in Uzbek. But my feelings? I think they belong to Turkish. When feelings are expressed in Turkish, I feel something different. I actually feel it. I feel the same way with Arabic, but I don’t know Arabic (yet).
I’ve heard “I like you” or “I love you” in Russian, Uzbek, and English, but I never really felt anything. Maybe I just never heard it from the right person.
But right now, I’m wishing that the person I’ll meet will confess in Turkish.
P.S. I know I am weird :D
Me at the same time:
I can explain certain things only in Russian, and the most important things only in English. Of course, there are some things I can express only in Uzbek. But my feelings? I think they belong to Turkish. When feelings are expressed in Turkish, I feel something different. I actually feel it. I feel the same way with Arabic, but I don’t know Arabic (yet).
I’ve heard “I like you” or “I love you” in Russian, Uzbek, and English, but I never really felt anything. Maybe I just never heard it from the right person.
But right now, I’m wishing that the person I’ll meet will confess in Turkish.
P.S. I know I am weird :D
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Just wanted to leave this here… how proud I am of myself for pushing myself. Alhamdulillah, ma shaa Allah tabarakAllah.
I’m keeping up with my other challenges and even added one more: daily 10k+ steps ✅
Also, I finally got a swimming trainer! From the very first day my trainer was like: “osh tarqatvorin, bo’ldi yana nima kere suzvosku” 😅 (meaning basically I already know how to swim). Yeah, true, but I want some technique, not just floating around heheh 🤭
On top of that, I’ve started another book, learned a bunch of new words, and did some reading.
P.S. literally falling asleep. But did not dare to go to sleep without celebrating my “small” wins 😎
P.S.1. I love myself so much 😁🤭 (oh what a humble person I am uh-huh)
I’m keeping up with my other challenges and even added one more: daily 10k+ steps ✅
Also, I finally got a swimming trainer! From the very first day my trainer was like: “osh tarqatvorin, bo’ldi yana nima kere suzvosku” 😅 (meaning basically I already know how to swim). Yeah, true, but I want some technique, not just floating around heheh 🤭
On top of that, I’ve started another book, learned a bunch of new words, and did some reading.
P.S. literally falling asleep. But did not dare to go to sleep without celebrating my “small” wins 😎
P.S.1. I love myself so much 😁🤭 (oh what a humble person I am uh-huh)
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Everything I want for myself, I want for everyone around me. I hope we all make it, and I hope we all find the things that make us happy.
Good night, y’all! 🌙
Good night, y’all! 🌙
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Hellooo :)
I woke up early, did some morning stretching, had a contrast shower, my detox juice, listened to a podcast about being calm and non-reactive, and had a biiig breakfast :)
I used to take contrast showers years ago, and it's been a long time since I last did them. Now I've been trying it again for almost a week, and I love it so much. It always feels a bit stressful at the beginning, but after that, it’s amazing. You feel fresh, clear, and really awake. But I think it’s important to be careful with contrast showers. You should definitely check with your doctor before trying them, especially if you have any health concerns.
I also managed to read an article today about the benefits of contrast showers. It made me even more curious about how they affect the nervous system and recovery.
And about the book I started, I just came across something really interesting. I learned there's a difference between the words “fakir” and “miskeen.” In the Surah At-Tawbah, 9:60:
"Charity is for the poor and the needy"
Both terms are used together, which in Arabic means they refer to two separate categories. According to Lisān al-ʿArab, a fakir is someone in extremely difficult conditions, almost nothing to their name. A miskeen, on the other hand, might still have a few possessions but is still in need. Like in Surah Al-Kahf, where the miskeen had a boat, so they weren’t totally without means, but they were still described as in need.
That was a small detail but it stuck with me.
P.S. learning new things just make me feel good. That is it for now.
Have a lovely day ahead 🌻
I woke up early, did some morning stretching, had a contrast shower, my detox juice, listened to a podcast about being calm and non-reactive, and had a biiig breakfast :)
I used to take contrast showers years ago, and it's been a long time since I last did them. Now I've been trying it again for almost a week, and I love it so much. It always feels a bit stressful at the beginning, but after that, it’s amazing. You feel fresh, clear, and really awake. But I think it’s important to be careful with contrast showers. You should definitely check with your doctor before trying them, especially if you have any health concerns.
I also managed to read an article today about the benefits of contrast showers. It made me even more curious about how they affect the nervous system and recovery.
And about the book I started, I just came across something really interesting. I learned there's a difference between the words “fakir” and “miskeen.” In the Surah At-Tawbah, 9:60:
"Charity is for the poor and the needy"
Both terms are used together, which in Arabic means they refer to two separate categories. According to Lisān al-ʿArab, a fakir is someone in extremely difficult conditions, almost nothing to their name. A miskeen, on the other hand, might still have a few possessions but is still in need. Like in Surah Al-Kahf, where the miskeen had a boat, so they weren’t totally without means, but they were still described as in need.
That was a small detail but it stuck with me.
P.S. learning new things just make me feel good. That is it for now.
Have a lovely day ahead 🌻
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My mother raised me as soft-hearted person, but once you step on my boundaries, you are going to meet my father's attitude 😉
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The week was truly productive, Alhamdulillah. We wrapped up Sunday with almost 13,000 steps, plenty of learning, and lots of reading.
Days are getting so busy that I barely find time to post, but I’m still keeping up with my challenges and pushing myself forward.
Days are getting so busy that I barely find time to post, but I’m still keeping up with my challenges and pushing myself forward.
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I just finished Tahajjud and I’m still sitting on my prayer mat, reflecting. A thought crossed my mind: last year around this same time, I used to spend these hours pouring my heart into duas, asking Allah SWT for things I thought were good for me, though they were not.
When Allah doesn’t grant us something, it’s not rejection, it’s redirection. It is a mercy (only for the ones who can see it). Back then, I believed that if I prayed hard enough, if I never missed Tahajjud, then surely what I wanted would become good for me. And in a way, I did receive it… but at what cost? That was a lesson in itself. Subhan Allah.
Tahajjud is beautiful. Dua is beautiful. And now, my prayers are different. I no longer ask for what I think is best. I ask only for what is truly of khayr for me, because I don’t know, but Allah does. He knows, He sees, He cares. And so I trust Him. I rely on Him. Always.
P.S. May Allah grant us what is best for us, in the best form and at the best time. And may He never let our hearts become attached to what is not ours.
When Allah doesn’t grant us something, it’s not rejection, it’s redirection. It is a mercy (only for the ones who can see it). Back then, I believed that if I prayed hard enough, if I never missed Tahajjud, then surely what I wanted would become good for me. And in a way, I did receive it… but at what cost? That was a lesson in itself. Subhan Allah.
Tahajjud is beautiful. Dua is beautiful. And now, my prayers are different. I no longer ask for what I think is best. I ask only for what is truly of khayr for me, because I don’t know, but Allah does. He knows, He sees, He cares. And so I trust Him. I rely on Him. Always.
P.S. May Allah grant us what is best for us, in the best form and at the best time. And may He never let our hearts become attached to what is not ours.
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My biggest flex?
I’m not afraid to let people walk out of my life. Disrespect me once, and I’ll cut you off like you never existed. For real!
I’ve learned that my peace is non-negotiable.
P.S. You don’t deserve to know how I made it to the shore if you left me in the middle of the storm.
P.S.1. Access to me is a privilege. Disrespect me once, and you’ll never have that privilege again.
No, I’m not full of myself. I just know how much love and kindness I pour into the people I care about. And if you still mess that up? You don’t deserve it.
I’m not afraid to let people walk out of my life. Disrespect me once, and I’ll cut you off like you never existed. For real!
I’ve learned that my peace is non-negotiable.
P.S. You don’t deserve to know how I made it to the shore if you left me in the middle of the storm.
P.S.1. Access to me is a privilege. Disrespect me once, and you’ll never have that privilege again.
No, I’m not full of myself. I just know how much love and kindness I pour into the people I care about. And if you still mess that up? You don’t deserve it.
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The book I'm currently reading (yes, I’m reading a few at once 😅) is in Turkish but I’ll try to share what I’m learning with you bit by bit in English.
What really caught my attention is the different names or layers of the "Qalb" (which we usually just translate as "heart" in English). I had no idea there were other names used in the Qur’an that describe the heart from different angles, and it honestly helped me understand myself better too.
Sadr refers to the outer part of the inner self, literally the "chest." It's the place where thoughts and emotions start to appear. It’s also where openness or constriction can happen. In the Qur’an, it’s described as the space where either guidance or misguidance first enters.
“أَلَمْ نَشْرَحْ لَكَ صَدْرَكَ”
“Did We not expand for you your breast (ṣadr)?”
(Surah Ash-Sharh, 94:1)
“فَمَن يُرِدِ ٱللَّهُ أَن يَهْدِيَهُ يَشْرَحْ صَدْرَهُ لِلْإِسْلَـٰمِ”
“So whoever Allah wants to guide, He opens his breast (ṣadr) to Islam.”
(Surah Al-An’am, 6:125)
Then there’s Fu’ād, which is more about the emotional heart, the part of us that feels deeply, that burns with longing or grief. It's mentioned as something we’ll be held accountable for.
“إِنَّ ٱلسَّمْعَ وَٱلْبَصَرَ وَٱلْفُؤَادَ كُلُّ أُو۟لَـٰٓئِكَ كَانَ عَنْهُ مَسْـُٔولًا”
“Indeed, the hearing, the sight, and the heart (fuʾād), all will be questioned about.”
(Surah Al-Isra, 17:36)
So fu’ād is not just about emotion, it’s about deep internal experiences that we’re responsible for too.
Next is Lubb, and this one really fascinated me. It’s described as the innermost core, the pure heart, the part of us where wisdom, sincerity, and true understanding live. It’s mentioned in the Qur’an with the phrase ulul albab (people of deep insight).
“إِنَّ فِى ذَٰلِكَ لَذِكْرَىٰ لِأُو۟لِى ٱلْأَلْبَـٰبِ”
“Indeed in that is a reminder for people of insight (ulū al-albāb).”
(Surah Al-Ra’d, 13:19)
Lubb is like the heart of the heart, the place where truth really lands, where reflection and sincerity happen.
And of course, the word we hear most often is Qalb. It's the main term for "heart" in the Qur’an, but it’s much deeper than just feelings. It’s the center of faith, of understanding, and of turning, because qalb actually means “to turn” in Arabic. The heart turns, it flips, it changes. And the goal is for it to turn towards truth.
So the qalb can be pure or diseased, guided or misguided, it’s the part of us that needs constant care and attention.
P.S. I hope you will find this helpful as well.
What really caught my attention is the different names or layers of the "Qalb" (which we usually just translate as "heart" in English). I had no idea there were other names used in the Qur’an that describe the heart from different angles, and it honestly helped me understand myself better too.
Sadr refers to the outer part of the inner self, literally the "chest." It's the place where thoughts and emotions start to appear. It’s also where openness or constriction can happen. In the Qur’an, it’s described as the space where either guidance or misguidance first enters.
“أَلَمْ نَشْرَحْ لَكَ صَدْرَكَ”
“Did We not expand for you your breast (ṣadr)?”
(Surah Ash-Sharh, 94:1)
“فَمَن يُرِدِ ٱللَّهُ أَن يَهْدِيَهُ يَشْرَحْ صَدْرَهُ لِلْإِسْلَـٰمِ”
“So whoever Allah wants to guide, He opens his breast (ṣadr) to Islam.”
(Surah Al-An’am, 6:125)
Then there’s Fu’ād, which is more about the emotional heart, the part of us that feels deeply, that burns with longing or grief. It's mentioned as something we’ll be held accountable for.
“إِنَّ ٱلسَّمْعَ وَٱلْبَصَرَ وَٱلْفُؤَادَ كُلُّ أُو۟لَـٰٓئِكَ كَانَ عَنْهُ مَسْـُٔولًا”
“Indeed, the hearing, the sight, and the heart (fuʾād), all will be questioned about.”
(Surah Al-Isra, 17:36)
So fu’ād is not just about emotion, it’s about deep internal experiences that we’re responsible for too.
Next is Lubb, and this one really fascinated me. It’s described as the innermost core, the pure heart, the part of us where wisdom, sincerity, and true understanding live. It’s mentioned in the Qur’an with the phrase ulul albab (people of deep insight).
“إِنَّ فِى ذَٰلِكَ لَذِكْرَىٰ لِأُو۟لِى ٱلْأَلْبَـٰبِ”
“Indeed in that is a reminder for people of insight (ulū al-albāb).”
(Surah Al-Ra’d, 13:19)
Lubb is like the heart of the heart, the place where truth really lands, where reflection and sincerity happen.
And of course, the word we hear most often is Qalb. It's the main term for "heart" in the Qur’an, but it’s much deeper than just feelings. It’s the center of faith, of understanding, and of turning, because qalb actually means “to turn” in Arabic. The heart turns, it flips, it changes. And the goal is for it to turn towards truth.
So the qalb can be pure or diseased, guided or misguided, it’s the part of us that needs constant care and attention.
P.S. I hope you will find this helpful as well.
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