Day by day suicidal thought become a routine .

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Feels like im a burden to everyone , can I just dissappear ?

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I've met a guy, he is so special. He makes me laugh everytime im with him. Its been a long time since i laugh that sincere. I didnt know how to describe but im at peace when im with him. But we are no one to each other. We dont have any special relationship.

What if one day , i left. Will he come and find me? He knows everything about me. Where i live, where i was working, what do i do for living.

Sadly he didn't know my past. How I've been treated. How my past wound are still bleeding. How i cry every night just to sleep. How i starve myself so i feel better. How i draw lines on my hand so i come at peace.

Maybe, I didn't deserve him. I dont deserve anyone. I dont deserve to be happy am i?

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I hope i could let him go on the day when he choose to leave

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I could love you with all my heart but still look at other men

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Always asking more towards wrong person

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I love,
I beg,
But still
He left

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I feel like this year is my last year

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I can't do it anymore, pretend that im happy, pretend that im healed , the endless pretend. I cant do it anymore.

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Hidup.

Celik.
Mandi.
Kerja.
Balik.
Menangis.
Tidur.


Itu hidup?

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Sleeping because falling in love is wrong

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I should've died that night

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Enjoy your life and forget my name.

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Now, i avoid everyone that i know. And that's weird, as before this i was the most outgoing person that they ever knew.

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Why do people fall in love? Isn't it waste of time and energy? Like you gave your all but in the end received a bare minimum.

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And for that fvck love.

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