Am I worth for living ? can i bring benefits for people by living ? Am I that important to live ? Can I be useful to humanity ? Can I be that faithful servant ? Why I can't be like those brave people who speaks their mind out . While I'm hiding myself in the dark hoping to die for any illness , people outhere are fighting for their life . Shame on me . Shame on me ya Allah .
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There is night that I have tried to take my life , I thought those scar gonna fade away but it remains untill now . Everytime I look at those scars , it reminds me of that useless soul of mine . How useless I am even death don't want me . Shame on me again .
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I've met a guy, he is so special. He makes me laugh everytime im with him. Its been a long time since i laugh that sincere. I didnt know how to describe but im at peace when im with him. But we are no one to each other. We dont have any special relationship.
What if one day , i left. Will he come and find me? He knows everything about me. Where i live, where i was working, what do i do for living.
Sadly he didn't know my past. How I've been treated. How my past wound are still bleeding. How i cry every night just to sleep. How i starve myself so i feel better. How i draw lines on my hand so i come at peace.
Maybe, I didn't deserve him. I dont deserve anyone. I dont deserve to be happy am i?
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What if one day , i left. Will he come and find me? He knows everything about me. Where i live, where i was working, what do i do for living.
Sadly he didn't know my past. How I've been treated. How my past wound are still bleeding. How i cry every night just to sleep. How i starve myself so i feel better. How i draw lines on my hand so i come at peace.
Maybe, I didn't deserve him. I dont deserve anyone. I dont deserve to be happy am i?
@reallifes
I can't do it anymore, pretend that im happy, pretend that im healed , the endless pretend. I cant do it anymore.
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