Growing up my mom preached to us almost everytime about the need of α°α....me and my siblings werenot that much fond of the idea. We liked our personal space and having only few people around. It was always a struggle feeling comfortable when α₯ααα³ came to visit and more painful when they stayed for a long time. Even in family gatherings our mom introduced everyone to us saying"α αα΅α½ αα" or "α αα΅α΅α½ αα΅" even though we know we werenot tiny bit related in blood to most of them. Yet she said "α°α ααα
α₯α© αα ααΌ α₯αα°αα α
αα½α α α³ααα"
People loved my mom because she was always present for them. α°αα.ααα΅. αα α²ααα΅. α°α α²αα΅. She is always with people. And I saw that pay her forward in good in my tiny life.My dad was mostly the silent and restricted one and we took most of our genes from him yet he too also saw the importance of this.
αα’ α¨αα£α αα my mom stayed almost a week and in that span of time she introduced me to everyone. Most of the αα’ αα αα½ knew me they carried my bag α¨break α΅ααα΅.....kept an eye on me...even prayed for me with their wives. Even my friends whom I love I was introduced to through her.
Having spent the past couple of months away from people and isolated in a a certain way showed me that in the few moments I spend with people in the middle I feel something in me being liberated. I feel alive in a way. They become a good escape from my brain that always kept humming. Despite loving personal space, healthy amount of relationship with people is essential.My mom was right in this...α¨α°α αα is indeed αα΅ααα΅ but also should be taken in the right dosage.
People loved my mom because she was always present for them. α°αα.ααα΅. αα α²ααα΅. α°α α²αα΅. She is always with people. And I saw that pay her forward in good in my tiny life.My dad was mostly the silent and restricted one and we took most of our genes from him yet he too also saw the importance of this.
αα’ α¨αα£α αα my mom stayed almost a week and in that span of time she introduced me to everyone. Most of the αα’ αα αα½ knew me they carried my bag α¨break α΅ααα΅.....kept an eye on me...even prayed for me with their wives. Even my friends whom I love I was introduced to through her.
Having spent the past couple of months away from people and isolated in a a certain way showed me that in the few moments I spend with people in the middle I feel something in me being liberated. I feel alive in a way. They become a good escape from my brain that always kept humming. Despite loving personal space, healthy amount of relationship with people is essential.My mom was right in this...α¨α°α αα is indeed αα΅ααα΅ but also should be taken in the right dosage.
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From listening to so many stories of so many goodbyes left unsaid....so many broken promises and seeing so many people still wallowing on a past they couldn't seem to let go of I have accmulated a fear of becoming one that has the same effect on people's life. Leaving a dark trace behind. Saying "I was here" through my past presence in the cost of their sanity. α¨α ααΈ "αα αα©α" α¨αα α³αͺαα αα΅αα¨α΅ α₯αα«αα..... so in turn I have learnt α ααα¨α΅ αα΅α₯ α«α΅α α₯α«α‘ αααα αα΅α¨αα or rather distancing myself enough from a person's life as to not leave any mark....α ααα½α αααα α₯αα ααα©α α α΅α°ααα½α α₯αα³αα«α½αα΅ αααα°α.........
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Forwarded from Abditoryπ€ (Yeab)
Tell me how many goodbyes and roads travelled does it take before I make peace with the grief of leaving a place....?
α α³α΅α§α½α α α«αα
α?
If its really you talking or people?
If your thoughts are programmed today or so long in the past?
"α°αα α" α₯α¨α°α£α α₯αα°αα«αα α αααͺ
α¨α°αα αα³α₯ α α αα°α α± α₯αα°ααα
α΅ααα΅αα½α ααα¬ α₯α«α ααα΅ α₯α¨α°α αα½α α₯αα°αα α°α°αα·α½α α«ααα?
α α α₯αα°ααα α°α αααα΅ α αα°α α³α½α ααα α³ααα½α α«ααα?
If its really you talking or people?
If your thoughts are programmed today or so long in the past?
"α°αα α" α₯α¨α°α£α α₯αα°αα«αα α αααͺ
α¨α°αα αα³α₯ α α αα°α α± α₯αα°ααα
α΅ααα΅αα½α ααα¬ α₯α«α ααα΅ α₯α¨α°α αα½α α₯αα°αα α°α°αα·α½α α«ααα?
α α α₯αα°ααα α°α αααα΅ α αα°α α³α½α ααα α³ααα½α α«ααα?
"I didnβt know that the war was still inside you, that there was a war to begin with, that once it enters you it never leaves..."
Most days I search on what i posted a year ago on a specific day to look back at what I used to be like but more to see if I changed even a bit. If today isnot just a change in a date and that I actually moved in a way from where i used to be. Change in those days feels good. More when it has a lot to do with healing.
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We can't go over it
We can't go under it
We're just gonna have to go through it
We're gonna have to go through it
Swish, swish, swish, swish
πΆπΆ
We can't go under it
We're just gonna have to go through it
We're gonna have to go through it
Swish, swish, swish, swish
πΆπΆ
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Forwarded from Abditoryπ€ (Venice Bitch)
Each breath I take I say
"I am alive still and isn't that more than what I am supposed to be"
-Desireè Dallagiacomo-
"I am alive still and isn't that more than what I am supposed to be"
-Desireè Dallagiacomo-
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